Balveen Hullon

I like the idea of Valentines Day! :D

2012-02-10T20:42:00.001+08:00

Has it really been ten days since I last posted on here? I promise you I have been busy. And it's not like I haven't been blogging because I have. Just... not here. ;)

So. To update you funky-doodle people on what I have been up to. I have... Been studying. Which is what people go to College to do. I have had about 4 Advanced Functions tests and a couple of Chem tests. I have been camwhoring with my friends, because that is what teenagers do.

Like this.

I have been to a farewell dinner for Kelvin, who is migrating out of the country soon. I didnt take any pictures at the dinner but I did snap a shot of myself before I left -

And I have been for driving lesson after drving lesson every weekend. And no i did not take a picture of the driving academy.
I have also been to meetings, auditions (LIVE auditions went well today, YESSS!) and other trivial little things that have made up my life for the past 10 days.

That's all for today guys! :D If you want to know the more deep thoughts and innards of my mind you can always read my Tumblr. Because there, I hold nothing back.

Have a good day-of-love this coming fourteenth! I know I will :)

One down, eleven to go.:D

2012-02-01T09:49:00.000+08:00

Right now, I'm sitting in the computer lab, staring into space, looking for things to do besides surfing twitter and facebook. Wth why am I so boring?

It feels like just yesterday when I was standing at the window, watching the fireworks light up the KL city skyline as the world rang in a new year. But it wasn't - It's been an entire month. And in that one month, things have happened.

I've joined the Animal Huggers Club and am now running for a double role - vice president and event coordinator.
I've joined the Drama Club.
I've discovered an ability to make people laugh, especially when a harrowing, intricately woven poem is being dissected.
I've made friends. (Yes I'm shocked too)
And I'm finding myself settling into comfortable pace in college.

So to end this end-of-January-report blog post,

...I'm not doing so bad.

In some ways, some things never change

2012-01-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

I sit here on a Sunday night reading tweets from my friends - both my age, older and younger - and all I see are people scrambling to finish homework after the week long Chinese New Year holidays.

And here I was thinking that when college started, the procrastination would decrease and I would actually get things done in advance. Instead, I just topped the procrastination level by saying firmly to myself - "You shall do your assignments on Sunday."
I didn't even bother attempting to plan to do it earlier!
So in conclusion - some things never change. Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator. College sure as hell can't change that!

Before I go -

Ice cream, anyone? ;)

The many faces of Balveen Hullon

2012-01-26T14:24:00.001+08:00

I do really weird things when I'm bored and have a webcam at my disposal. How was your Chinese New Year? :)

THESE ARE MAI CONFESSIONS!

2012-01-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Yes, since I got the MacBook I've been taking way too many pictures with the webcam, I know. But it's just so cool.

I'm not the only one. Look at what my cousins have been doing too! It's addictive! :D

So anyway. I've been listening to this over and over and I like it a LOT. Hence the title of this post. Enjoy!

PS- Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

Of phones I had and have and will maybe never have.

2012-01-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

Some of you may know that I recently replaced my Nokia C3.

It served me well for a good 15 months, but then I found myself craving a smartphone, something that would keep me connected to cyberspace no matter where I go. Which is why, about a month ago, I decided to use my savings to get a Samsung Galaxy Ace.

For all intents and purposes, the Galaxy Ace fitted my needs perfectly. A mid-range device meant it fit my budget and it was a touch screen smartphone to keep me always in the know about happenings around the world. On top of that, it happens to be a pretty good looking phone.

But now that I've been using it for a month, I'm beginning to regret my decision. The keyboard is difficult to use. To a teenager to texts, Whatsapps, Tweets and is always on facebook, a keyboard is one of the most essential parts of the phone. And although the Samsung Galaxy Ace comes equipped with Swype (a program that enables you to simply slide your finger over the letters of a word in the keyboard, the phone simply guesses the word you are trying to spell) it still does not live up to expectations.

Another annoying aspect of this phone is the slow processor. Not two weeks after I got the Galaxy Ace, mum's Galaxy SII arrived, bringing with it the impossibly fast dual core processor that puts my Galaxy Ace's 1.4 processor to shame. Being the impatient being that I am, having to wait and wait for images and articles to load drives me up the wall.

I find myself longing for an actual keyboard like the one on my C3, which I could write entire essays on in a matter of minutes. Now I type short replies and have begun to use (GOD FORBID) abbreviations. I wish I would have gotten the Balckberry Curve, which had been JUST within my price range. You can imagine how frustrated I am now.

What oh what am I to do? :(

It's the girl you let get away

2012-01-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hellllo everyone :)
So just to update, I've been doing homework, preparing for classes every night ( BB7 is a gift from the technoheavens) and keeping busy. Just today was the Club Recruitment carnival. I signed up for the clubs - Dance Club, Stage Performing Arts Club for Entertainment and the Animal Huggers Club.

It's been crazy. In one day my Chem teacher changed my whole perspective of higher level Chemistry - all in a 20 minute Student Success session that saved my butt from a very bad first-test-of-the-year result. I'm meeting new people (Today alone I spent time with 2 different groups of people in two different restaurants) and learning new things. The big shocker of the week is that I'm not flunking Advanced Functions yet. In fact, I'm doing pretty well. And of course, English will be english - crazy group-mates and all.

I would go on for longer, but I am tired and I have a quiz + group work session tomorrow first thing in the morning and I don't want to the sleep deprived and cranky so I'm going to hit the sack.

I hope college keeps bringing surprises, because I like surprises. (You listening, universe?)

PS - Maybe I will get my fresh start. I'm joining the Student Council. :)

Steve, you know I love you, but...

2012-01-13T19:24:00.002+08:00

Me: If you could meet one Celebrity, which would it be, and why? (Can be someone from the past).
Daniel: Steve Jobs. I would ask him about his future plans and get to know his money making tech-
Me: EH, if you gonna bring him back, convince him to lower Apple prices la!

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Yes, so as you can see above, college has been interesting.

... can you believe week on is over?!
Time has just flown by, taking with it my first week of college. I've met so many new people, had so many new realizations (Teachers couldn't care less whether I use pen or pencil!) and learnt to just get going with things, and not worry about whether there's someone there to catch me if I fall.

Which is exactly why I twisted my ankle yesterday walking back to college after lunch. Eheh heh.

I don't have any more to report, lately I've taken to vlogging, which is basically video blogging. I post my vlog entries on youtube but they are private (for now) because I don't think I'm ready to start letting people I don't know watch me babble on about what I've been up to everyday.

So to end this post, I'll leave you with a picture of me doing a (failed) attempt of being a lala. You don't laugh okayyyy.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY YOU CAN LAUGH.

I pray to god everyday, that you keep that smile,.

2012-01-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

Blog got a little bit of a Thursday night makeover.
YOU LAIKK?! :D

College is going well. :) More soon, I promise!
I hope?
I think.

:p goodnight everyone!

Is heaven above the clouds?

2012-01-09T21:54:00.001+08:00

A while ago, I was sitting here thinking that it's the night before college starts, feeling like this -->

"Oh. My. God. *Blinkblink*"

But then I remembered that I'm Balveen Hullon. So now, I feel like this!

Wish Taylor's luck, it won't know what hit it.

...I'm just kidding. I need the luck a lot more than Taylor's.

Worth the wait

2012-01-08T19:34:00.001+08:00

I remember wanting a laptop so bad when I was about 13. Thinking it was the coolest thing in the world to have a computer you could port around everywhere you went. Instant entertainment, easy access to everyone in the world. I was too young for one, they said. I thought no more of it.

When i was fourteen I tried saving up for a RM1000 netbook. It was tiny. But it would be my own laptop. I never got to that 1k.

A year later I was promised a laptop if I got straight A's for PMR. I did get straight A's but due to an unfortunate turn of events (that involved me breaking down in the middle of The Gardens, I was that angry), I did not get a laptop.

Fast forward to the beginning of Form Five. Last year. I attempted to save up again, for a netbook of about RM600. A bare basic one, out of desperation, because I couldn't bear the thought of sharing the 5 year old home desktop with my parents anymore. I needed my own harddrive space, my own folders. I failed in my attempt to save up. There were too many days when I had to buy dinner between classes, in a part of town where a decent meal would cost between RM8 - RM10. I gave up trying to save up. I would bear with the desktop for a while longer.

In the middle of the year, when I birthday loomed,I deluded myself into thinking I was getting a laptop for my birthday. As much as I hate to admit it (It makes me sound selfish, bratty and ungrateful - which I was), I was disappointed when my mum presented me with a red Swatch watch that I had been eying in numerous advertisements in Mid Valley. It was a beautiful watch, the kind of minimalist watch that fitted my taste perfectly.

Despite that, I was angry at my mother for not getting me a laptop. I had pined and hoped and prayed, and I had not gotten what I wanted.

If you have been attentively reading from the start, you would have noticed that I had been hoping for a laptop for a total of over 5 years. Five years, I had to wait, before - finally - my mother bought me a beautiful MacBook Pro 13". Today. I've spent hours Skyping Claire (She has a MacBook too, and is a Pro at clicking her way around) and configuring my new baby, Macky. (You laugh and see. I smackyou)

Isn't the wallpaper awesome? Claire chose it. Praise her NOW, she deserves it a hundred times over.

The moral of this post is that some things are just worth the wait. :)
PS- A GIGANTIC thank you to my Nani and Mummy, they co-bought it for me. I am lucky, extremely so.

We gonna party like, like it's the end of the world!

2011-12-31T13:03:00.001+08:00

Only 11 hours and 3 minutes to the New Year.
I know I should be more excited, but to be honest, I'm wary. I hoped for an amazing 2011, but I was let down. Too many downs and too few ups, too much of a struggle to keep a smile on my face, to stay as positive as I could.

But 2012 marks my first year in college. I'm going from Secondary schooler, to college student (Not just any college either - I'm heading to Taylor's!) and that alone should have my spirits up. I'm going to do my best to continue to find myself, to continue to make more friends (and appreciate the old ones), to continue to love my family and to keep up my sponge-like ability to learn and absorb knowledge like the little nerd that I am.

I'm not usually the type to turn to god (unless I need/want something because I'm selfish like that) but for once I just want to thank god for what I have. Not everyone is blessed with such an understanding mum, a loving Nani, stand-with-you-through-it-all best friend like Claire and Sumeya, and a comfortable life.

Am I ending 2011 on a happy note? I'm going to try, even though the shadows of the past year are going to be there, lurking in the back of my mind.

Am I going to have a great 2012?
I really, really hope so.

We gonna party like, like it's 2012!

I was that girl. Or, I thought I was.

2011-12-19T13:58:00.003+08:00

I was the girl who went "I'd never start college a month after SPM. I need a break!" I insisted that I'd only join a course that offered a July intake.

Here I am, starting college 40 days after SPM. Yesterday's Education Fair in Mid Valley made me realize that I wanted to start. Why wait, when college experiences awaited?

So in January, I start a very new (very foreign) chapter of my life. I'm going to Pre-University.

Wish me luck, guys! :D

One minute...

2011-12-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting here with every single muscle in my body aching. Why? Desa WaterPark, that's why. I spent all day today at the place, swimming, sliding, wading, wave surfing, laughing, Thunderbolting, Lazy River-ing, getting-thrown-out-of-my-float..ing, getting thrown around endlessly, getting my glasses stolen, wrestling, spinning, screaming and splashing. Oh and for a brief instance, eating.
It was fun.
Only now, I have lobster red skin to match my hair, on my forearms, legs and face.

I can't sleep because as soon as I got home and had a shower, I went to bed. At 6 in the evening. With every intention of sleeping through the night. That plan went down the drain when I found myself blinking into the darkness at 8 or so, unable to go back to sleep.

So here I've been ever since, crying at an old episode of The Vampire Diaries (Why must Jenna die, whyyyyyy?), downloading music, Tumblr-ing and now blogging.

I've used a lot of verbs in this post. I'm impressed with myself. Makes me look busy (even though I'm not that busy teeheee)

Okay, goodnight.

... and a new day is born.

What's been happenin'?

2011-12-08T22:28:00.001+08:00

Helloooooo earthlings!
SPM is over! I'm a free birdie, and boy am I living it up. Right now, I'm sitting at the computer with RED HIGHLIGHTS in my hair, pretty purple pedicured toes, a pending KPP ceramah tomorrow (all part and parcel of the driving license process).

Am I having a good time? Hell yeah.

Before i jump ahead and ramble on about the future plans and many upcoming events on my calendar, let me take you back about 8 days, to that lovely moment when SPM ended. Putting my pen down for the last time of my high school career was momentous. I was saying goodbye to some people perhaps for the last time. After waving goodbye to all the people I'd gone through so much with in 5 years (some 11!), Sumeya and i trudged the path to my home (giddy with excitement, repeating "SPM IS OVER!" to each other) for me to collect my stuff and then we headed over to her place, where the first thing I did after changing out of my school uniform was dive into the swimming pool.

About an hour after we got to Sumeya's, Ameena and Adelin joined us at the poolside where we had been hanging out with Sumeya's brother, Fehim and his buddy Hassan. Adelin got into the pool with me ( in a loaned swimsuit courtesy of yours truly) and we splashed around like two biggest KIDS you had ever seen. The day wore on, from afternoon to evening to night, and the fun never paused. We ordered so much pizza that us six teenagers struggled to get off our poolside chairs when we were done.
The fun we had. The gossiping, the laughing, the occasional silence when someone went "Can you believe SPM is over?", the pool races, the games of catch, the jumping off the towering waterfall (and the impossibly challenging climb I faced to get up there) was the most fun I'd had in a long time.

When my mum picked me up later that night (sopping wet and barefoot - don't ask), I got home, showered and went to sleep more peacefully than I had in a long time, the weight in my chest lifted. Those of you who follow me on Twitter, I'm sure you understand. The repeated complaining I did on there about the weight SPM brought on was a little hard to miss.

Fast forward to today. I now have 2 days of working experience from ToysRUs, the aforementioned red hair, the purple toes, the pending driving lessons, a lot of outing dates planned and smile on my face every night.

Lotsa love, guys.

PS -

Enjoy this picture of me in my school uniform. It's the very last of it's sort. And yes, that is Sumeya. :)

WHEN?!

2011-10-02T15:01:00.002+08:00

That was my reaction when someone said "SPM is in 40+ days."
I flipped.

Yes. I did.

Anyway. I need to study. Because I want to do well. Because getting good results will be the key to being rich. I like the idea of being rich. Therefore, I. Need. To. Study.

Until that beautiful, lovely, amazing, dreamlike day in the near future when SPM ends and I am free from the clutches of the book-human cupid (See: Nirmala), I am deserting this little cyber-sanctuary, aka my bloggie.

I am leaving it for books, notes, questions, more books, more notes and more questions.

And of course, I am leaving my blog for little stress artwork I like making when I get distracted from studying. Wanna know what I mean?

Yes. Like this. No I am not joking. Stop laughing at me! :(

So until December 1st, (maybe the second, I have so many things I want to do as soon as I put my pen down after the bio paper that I'm not sure I will be seated until 48 hours after the exam ends) I bid you adieu.

Just so you don't forget what I look like -

Heeeee. Bye! :D

So here's a good question -

2011-09-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

If life is already wearing me down, and I'm only 17, what happens when I'm 40?

My heart was pounding...

2011-09-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

...along with the loud music. The pushing, shoving, the energy of the dance floor took over as I shook to the beat. The sheen of sweat slowly forming on my brow became more pronounced each time the flashing lights hit my face, but then again, so did the glow of my skin, the twinkle in my eyes.

The song changed. A slow number, and couples formed on the dance floor, taking up hands to shoulders and waists. I stepped off the dance floor, picked up my shoes, and with them dangling in my hands, walked slowly back to my seat to admire the sea of dancing youth from afar.

As usual, my eyes raked the room for you, as they did every 90 seconds. I found you easily. Perhaps it was from practice, but the sight of you stuck out like a sore thumb to me. I could spot you anywhere. As I sat down at the empty table, I watched you. I didn’t normally reminisce every time I glanced your way, but perhaps the slow music was bringing out my emotional side.

It hit me hard, as it normally did, when I remembered our kiss. It was a simple act of physicality to you, wasn’t it? But it had meant everything - everything- to me. To have the man you had loved for over a year finally lean it to place his lips on yours, was a wonderful feeling. To have him place his hands on either sides of your waist. Knowing that right then, you were his. To feel the warmth of his blood pass under your fingertips when you rested your hand on his neck.

My eyes became glazed over, I took on a unfocused look as I imagined a possible scenario. One that would change my night.

You sit down next to me, not looking at me. Your hands are fiddling nervously in front of you on the cream table cloth. I stare at you, shocked that you would come so close to me, and then quickly look away. It takes me a second to realize that you are talking to me.

“Do you wanna dance?”
My eyes flash up to you. I stare disbelievingly at you, sure that it is a trick, a ploy to humiliate me even more than you already have. But your face, your deep set eyes staring fixedly at your restless fingers. You were serious. There was no doubt in my mind. I didn’t trust myself to speak, so I nodded.

Your hands stopped moving. You pulled your arms back and reached for my hand resting on the table. Your sweaty palm closed around mine and you pulled me to my feet. You led me to the dance floor, our hands still firmly clasped. You glanced shyly at me, and I blinked back, still slightly unsure.

When we were under the flashing lights of the dance floor, you let go of my hand and pulled me close, your hands on my waist as they once were, many months ago. I didn’t put move to encircle my arms around your shoulders, but you simply guided my arms to do just that. We stood there, swaying slightly, eyes locked, inches away from each other. Gone from the boyish, playful face was the look of mischief, the look that told you that you was going to let me fall. It was replaced with an intense look I couldn’t decipher. It was a look that told me that i was different.

I came back to reality, and stared at the back of your head as the tear streaked down my cheek, as lone and solitary as i felt.

You make me feel...

2011-08-21T14:59:00.003+08:00

Just a little something I scribbled into my notebook the other day, feeling even more overwhelmed than usual.
Do your days go better than mine?

A little bit of life.

2011-07-21T14:45:00.008+08:00

Science Fair. You are looking at the official Photographer. 'Ssup.
Concept of vibration traveling through matter.Me slacking off the job to camwhore with Talitha.

Suani being all surgeon-y and dissecting a frog. The girl's a hero I tell you.

Me slacking off some more to camwhore with Sumeya and Adelin.

And so it goes :)

And then there was my seventeenth birthday celebration with Sin Sin, Soo Jean and Ammera.
Me being a bimbo. Ammera being normal.

Ammera and I camwhoring in the bathroom of TGIF, because it's what we do oh-so-well. :)

ICECREAMCAKE

And so it goes!
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I have a ton of things to do. TTFN! :)

Are you, are you coming to the tree?

2011-07-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

Aching.

Maybe that's the best word to describe this - this- feeling in me. Except it's not a feeling. It's a... sensation. And it hurts. God, does it hurt. It aches.

And i just go on with daily life, finding solace in my silly jokes with Ammera, the funny looks Soo Jean and I exchange, the gossip Sumeya and I share. Somehow, I go on.

But it's there. It hits the hardest when I'm alone. When there is nothing to distract me, it's like a pounding in my gut. Yet, somehow, I go on.

SPM starts in 119 days, did you know that? Well now you do. And the only thing that keeps me going, gets me through the days day in day out, is the image I come up with when I think of the future I'm heading towards.

So yeah, somehow, I go on.

Unbelievable

2011-06-29T11:54:00.002+08:00

It's gone. That story i worked so hard on, I even blogged about it here.
And now?
I feel... I feel so...

empty.

It's gone.

Somebodeh is gettin' oldddd.

2011-06-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

... and that 'sombodeh' is me.
Seventeeen!!! :D
Huge milestone. Last birthday before i reach legal adulthood. I made - I mean, am making - the very most of it.
An hour and a half before the day ends, and I am gonna enjoy every last millisecond of this great day.
Thank you mummy, for the watch, at precisely midnight. Thank you, Sonia, Naniji, SooJean and Najwa for wishing me at midnight.
Thank you to each and every one of the lovely people who texted me throughout the day, making it that much better.

So, here's to the next 365 days. Of books and endless tuition and very possibly the biggest achievement I could ever push myself to reach - straight A's in SPM.

♪Happy Birrrrthdayyyy to.... youuuuuuuuuuuu♪
I mean me.

;)

PS- Many thanks to Taylor's College, for the birthday message, also at midnight.
...yes, seriously.

So.

2011-06-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

WHO WANTS TO PLAY FROOOT NEENJAH? :D
*Thumbs up*

Somebody is getting very almost legally adult in 9 days.
I vander hoo.

Teacher said.. "Let's go over the baby steps. What does the baby say..."

2011-06-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

"... for completing the square?"
"... for writing a half ionic equation?"
"...if you want to find the resultant force?"

And that's when I said...
"... that is one genius baby."

Soo Jean took a while to regain her composure after that one.
Tee hee. ;)

2011-05-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

I can't believe you would say all those thing about me on your blog. Half of which wasn't even true. I thought you were a friend, I was obviously wrong. I hurt you, what about all the lies you are telling? What about how much you hurt me?

I am done. With every single childish person I have had the misfortune of meeting so far. Go make yourselves happy talking about me. Go on.
I couldn't care less, I just want to be free of this school, this country.
I can't wait to be free. You useless idiot never thought about how much I deal with and how much you cause all the pain.
Me, scold you? Look in a goddamn dictionary, and you'll see what scolding means. It was not what I was doing, I was DEFENDING myself. A normal person wouldn't need to defend herself, but that's what I had to do!

You said all those things and because of you I have no one. Are you happy? Huh? Do you like seeing me in pieces, for something I didn't do wrong?

Suicide is constantly on my mind, but do you care? No, you'll probably be the first one cheering at the news of my death.

I don't want to lose any friends, but I don't want any more knives in my back either.

You keep talking about me hurting you. Well you hurt me. Congratulations, your parents must be so proud of you.

Music to my ears, hurts.

2011-05-05T18:37:00.003+08:00

I asked you not to break my heart...

...but that's exactly what you did.

I asked you if you were playing me and you said no...

... but you were.

You can tell them what you want. That I begged YOU, that I suggested we keep it a secret, and so on. But you know the truth, boy. You and I know what really happened. I'm not going to do anything besides watch the guilt of your lies and deception eat you up from the inside, little by little.
Don't forget, now - What goes around, comes around.

Because of you, I screwed up my chance at performing. My one chance at showing everyone what I had. And when I let my voice leave my throat for the very first time in YEARS, the voice was one that didn't belong to me. It wobbled and shook, was gruff, I sounded bad to myself, and probably worse to everyone else.
Not how I know I really sound.
Because of you.

I listen to music, remember how bad I screwed up, and I feel my chest tighten. I hear a song I know I could have rocked on stage, and I remember, and I feel cold inside.
I remember why I screwed up, and I hate you a little more.

Trust me, baby, what goes around, comes around.

One day, I will belt out a song on a stage in front of millions, and I will feel at home again, the way I once did. One day.

What I've been thinkin' about

2011-04-30T20:58:00.004+08:00

What have I been thinking about? The days have been whizzing by in a blur of colour and sound, dragging me along with it, making me wonder why I do things, why we say things, why we feel the way we feel. What influences us, truly? Do we make up our own minds or do we let other people push our judgment in a certain direction.
Oh, ignore me. I'm having one of those delirious ranting barking mad days.
Although, seriously, what has been on my mind?

1. Midyears. In two weeks I sit for my midyear exams. I worry and worry. With every day that I learn something new at tuition (School is of no use to me, academically), I realize just how much more there is for me to learn. Am I prepared? Am I going to flunk add maths, again? Is my physics up top par with everyone elses?

2. Friendship. It's been a tumultuous year thus far, friendship-wise. I've lost friends, made friends, reconnected with buddies who I thought I would never be okay with again. Some people, I've learnt, are just mean by nature. Some do not want to accept flaws, some do not want to have anything to do with us once they decide we aren't good enough for them. I don't know anymore, who I can truly rely on, save a few who have been there for me from the very beginning, who love my quirks and randomness.

3. That kiss. A week and a half it's been. I haven't stopped wondering what it meant, if there will be more, if it felt for you the way it did for me.

4. Music. I have rather shallow taste in music. What is played on the radio, is what you find on my iPod. It's been getting me down. Anyone care to share some new tunes I might like? Please and thank you!

5. Macbooks.

Not a day goes by when I don't think about what it would be like to have enough in my bank account for one. Such a longing I have, for a aluminum encased machine! It just so happens that I was randomly searching macbooks on google, cutting a little deeper into an already bleeding wound, when i came across this.
Love. At. First. Sight.
Have you ever experienced that? To take one look at something and feel your heart expand and a warm glow spread to your very fingertips? For a few moments, everything seems so wonderful, so perfect, so.. lovely.
(I'm not just talking about a Macbook now, in case you were wondering how one person can be so deluded into writing such words for a computer)

I could go on, but Gossip Girl is done loading, I have a date with 'my one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite.'

Loves,
B.

Oh. Hello.

2011-04-16T23:38:00.003+08:00

Why do i feel like I never update my blog anymore? Oh. Because I don't. I realized that i only update my blog when I have something bothering me. Malaysian education system, lousy teachers, so on.
Sorry blog. All nicely themed and laid-out, yet used as a verbal punching bag. :/

I need to change that, don't I? I should start now. By blogging about something that isn't bothering me, but has made me happy. Like... school? No. School annoys me. Friends? Yes. Okay. But wait, I've already blogged about them. I once dedicated an entire blog post to them, remember? If you don't, click here.

How about boys? Oh god no, you're thinking. Okay okay, I won't bore you with a long list of DE-licious boys that have caught my eye over the past couple of months.

I could blog about the Maths and Science trip to the National Science Centre two weeks ago. That was fun like you won't believe. I know what you're thinking. What's so great about a bunch of science experiments? I'll let the pictures on Facebook speak for themselves. :)

OH! I know. I'll blog about the amazing book I just finished reading - The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. Amazing.

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It started off a little slow. I don't know if anyone has noticed, but Swedish names are long and impossible to pronounce, even in your head. Remembering who was who was tough at first. But then I began to familiarize with the characters as the plot thickened, the storyline weaving nicely into an exciting mystery that had you up all night eager to get to the bottom of it. In the end, it was a spectacular book, brilliant from every aspect. I encourage everyone to read it, if they get the chance to. I'm now on to the next book (I bought the trilogy set), The Girl Who Played with Fire.

Can't wait to finish it!

Goodnight everyone xoxo

Of late...

2011-03-12T16:53:00.006+08:00

This shall be an update on what has been happening in my life lately, whether significant or otherwise. (Mostly otherwise - I am not exactly the most interesting person in the world)

There have been seminars. I recently attended a full 10 hour seminar in UM, all for one subject; BM.
It was pretty good, but the exhaustion, oh my god! Sitting on that flat wooden shelf-like chair was uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable.

Besides that, I've been having fun exploring my photography lover side.And having a good time enjoying my final year in high school to the fullest.

Ehh, ignore how bad i look in this shot please. Thank you.
And helping Elicia with class deco. :)

Beyond school, I have been attending tuition classes nearly EVERY DAY. As much as I would love to just curl up in bed and go to sleep after school on some days, I know it must be done. SPM year. I must not slack off. I must score. *Determined face*

On another note, things are looking up after my heartbreak marathon last year. But that's all I'm saying here ;)

I could blog about every single event that I've attended, but I haven't the energy (and my fingers haven't the stamina) to go into detail about every aspect of my life.

Update over for now. A crazy week awaits, I am going for a F4 crash course all week, 7 hrs a day.
Wish me luck.

Loves.

Last Night...

2011-03-06T12:50:00.001+08:00

...was eventful.

I could have grown another layer of the hard shell I have around me to protect myself from the hurt. I could have cried all night.

But this time I chose not to. I spent the time I could have been crying, peeling off the many layers, and looking at who I’d become.

I’m going to try. It may not be good enough, but it’s a start. I will let myself be happy and be myself, but I’m not going to hurt others anymore in the process of being me.

Things have been changing, but they need to change more. I need to make this year a year to remember, it’s one of the last I have in school, in this Country maybe.

Just because I have been hurt in the past, just because mean jokes are the only kind of jokes that have been used against me, doesn’t mean that I have to hurt and use mean jokes on everyone who loves me now.

I’m gonna try.

When did we grow up?

2011-02-17T19:36:00.003+08:00

Do you remember when we were in standard 1? It was orientation, and we were like little buzzing bees, scared but so excited.We were in primary school, no more kindergarten! How grown up we felt.

Do you remember when we were in standard 4? We were in 'Tahap 2'. We had the second recess. We were the older kids. School finished later for is. How grown up we felt.

Do you remember when we were in Standard 6? We were seniors in school! We were the tallest, we headed all the teams, we were given this new, foreign thing, responsibility. Oh, how very grown up we felt.

Do you remember Form 1? We were in secondary school! We wore the turqoise pinafores, the dark olive pants, we stayed back for meetings after school and wrote in pen! Oh yes, we felt so grown up.

Do you remember the years between then and Form 5? They zoomed by, didn't they? In a whirl of exams, friends, outings, homework. Relationship drama (When did we start noticing the opposite sex?!) and rumours. We were grown up, surely, by then?

Do you see us now? Our feet no longer dangle a foot off the floor when we sat in our chairs. We speak with confidence, the girls with a certain softness, the boys with that sudden deepness. We manipulate, we lie, we laugh at sophisticated jokes now. We have proper relationships, we are given such responsibility.
We are often mistaken for adults when we meet new people outside school. Oh yes, we are all grown up.

When did we grow up?
When did we make that transition, from naive children to young adults? When did our feet feet finally start touching the floor when we sat in our chairs? When did we learn anger? Deceit?
When did we grow up?

All I can say is...

2011-02-15T13:21:00.002+08:00

... it was enchanting to meet you.

So Adam Young was the ADAM she meant in her song, Enchanted.
Her song is so lovely, and so is Adam's reply to it. :)

I am happy. :)

Her version ♥

His version ♥

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew...

Just don’t be vicious tomorrow. Please.

2011-01-25T22:43:00.001+08:00

This is going to sound stupid, but in my head, 'Please don't hurt me anymore, please don't hurt me anymore" is ringing over & over.
I feel like a ticking time bomb. All the hurt that is slowly building up is just gonna BLOW soon :/

I wish I could change things :(

2011-01-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Don't we all?

ENOUGH.

2011-01-06T14:39:00.003+08:00

All my schooling life, I have been a Malaysian student. I have been a good student, with reasonably good grades and no stains on my records. I have put up with the things that were put into my head, the things I have been told to do.

But now I'm growing up. 17 in a few months, I have developed thinking skills apart from many of my fellow school mates. And now I see the flaws, the naked flaws in this nation's so called education system.

Every teacher I've had so far has explained to us the marking scheme of exam papers. Why do students need to know how to mark papers? I have been told more than once, "Not to worry, you won't have to study the entire syllabus, I will tell you what areas to study".

I'm sorry, but what is the purpose of getting an education?! To pass exams?!
NO.
That's not why I go to school. Nor should it be why ANYONE goes to school. We go to school to gain knowledge, because only with knowledge will a person gain understanding of life, themselves, and the world around us.

I hate that we spent an hour and a half writing out the different criteria for the grades a person can receive in their Bahasa Malaysia essays.
I hate the education system, and how it has so negatively affected Malaysian youth.
I hate the people who had the audacity to say "If you don't pass my exam, don't come to school anymore!"
I hate the people who condone this sort of education, and that includes every parent in Malaysia who has sent their child to a public school.
I hate you politicians, for watching the people you govern become more and more stupid with every passing year - and doing nothing to fix it.

I may not be a genius, but I am thankful to my parents for bringing me up to think for myself, and not follow blindly - which makes me leaps and bounds more intelligent than vast a majority of Malaysians.

Do not think I am saying this because I hate to study, because that is not the problem here. The problem is here is WHY I am being made to study.
Which is, in simple words, to get a vertical row of black 'A's on a piece of paper, not to understand what I have done to get them.

Should I be fearful for what I have said here? For putting in words how very dim-witted the person who created the system is?
Well, I'm not. Come at me, I say.

My New Year Resolutions

2010-12-31T14:03:00.004+08:00

2010 is coming to a close, and at the back of that, 2011 is revving up and ready to start.
With that I decided to make a list of all my resolutions, all the things I hope I make an effort to make better or start doing and do more.

1. I will be nicer to everyone.
I have the rather unbecoming habit of being very cold towards people I don't know, and I should try to make and effort to be a little warmer and nicer to people.
I have a hot temper, and I have to try to reign that in and keep it in check.

2. I will study really really hard to do well this year
It's my very last year in school, and I really want to make it one worth remembering. Ten years from now I don't want to look back and go, it was a lousy year with bad grades.

3. I will improve my photography skills
As you know from my last blog post, I recently bought a new camera for myself, and although my shots have been not too shabby and worth looking at, I want to be even better by the end of 2011.

4. I will not be so LAZY.
I am one of those people who can persuade herself to do anything. Which is VERY dangerous. I can convince myself that i don't have to get ready straight away, because it only takes me 5 minutes to get ready, or convince myself that doing the wrong thing isn't THAT bad, etc etc.
And I therefore spend a lot of time procrastinating and being lazy. THIS MUST STOP. >:(

5. I will save money.
I will stop buying things I don't need and start saving money.

Well. I hope I do all this. I hope. I better.

Happy New Year, everyone.:D

What's a new camera without a little camwhoring?

2010-12-29T14:22:00.004+08:00

Two days ago, I finally bought my new camera. I had initially been hoping to get the Nikon L110, but when I actualy got to the shop, and shopped around, and with a little persuasion from Aunty Rita, I got the Canon SX210 IS.

It's a fantastic camera, to learn more about it, click here.
And guess what colour I got it in? Purple! :D

Gosh I look retarded. But ah well, are you complaining? :)

Camera! :D

2010-12-20T13:40:00.003+08:00

I'm getting a camera soon, so get ready for a major blog revamp. I'm probably gonna be blogging from my tumblr. Or I might leave reality to Blogger and fantasy to Tumblr.

We'll see.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Time to spill.

2010-12-13T17:16:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for the weekend. I can't wait to get my contacts. Can't wait to rid myself of this nerd image I've been portrayed for so long.
I had the bad hair, the braces, the glasses, but they're going away now. I'm being fixed. :)

I can't wait, but that's exactly what I am doing - waiting.

'I'm coming home' by J. Cole is playing.

I should be going to the gym but I'm so lazy I tell you, I'm just sitting here surfing the net. Did I tell you about my day yesterday? I watched Due Date, and did not like it. Such a dumb movie. -.-

I watched Dear John but got bored, with the DVD continuously skipping, so I turned it off. Watched TV, got bored of that, so now I'm online, and guess what? I'm still bored.

Tell the world I'm coming home

2010-12-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

Ready for a busy, FANTASTIC, memorable, final year in high school?

Full steam ahead, I say. ;)

I want to go back what I used to be, y'know?

I'd be lying.

2010-11-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

"What goes up, must come down."

I really thought I could change the way nature was destined to play out.
Oh, silly me.

Where?

2010-11-21T02:01:00.002+08:00

It's at random moments when I feel the tears well up in my eyes. When everything comes back and i can't stop from feeling the pain.

Seeing Dan Humphrey put his arms around Vanessa's waist. Seeing a couple, their hands loosely interlocked as if they take it for granted that the other person is going to be there forever.
When I see that, I want to grab their hands and force them to hold on tighter. I want to scream "It's going to be gone if you don't hold on!"

Because I didn't hold on tight enough. I took it for granted.

Where did it all go wrong?

And my days go...

2010-11-19T13:55:00.002+08:00

Have been ODing on Gossip Girl online. One whole season is one week.
No kidding.

Rotting at home. Eat, sleep, watch TV, Facebook, Gossip Girl and then repeat the cycle.

Hurt my back. Dammmnn you tailbone :(

I wanna do something for the holidays, but what? It has to be something flexible and not routine because of the tuition, and something fun so that it won't get boring after a few times.

I'm going back to Gossip Girl now.

♥.

PS - OHMYGOSH CHACE CRAWFORD CAN YOU SAYYYYY HOT?! *starts panting*

I am hungry.

2010-11-13T16:37:00.001+08:00

Give me food.
(please?)
:)

Dayuuummmmm weihhhh

2010-10-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

Forgive me for the very broken Malaysian English title. I'm feeling like it :D

Exams are supposed to be over, but thanks to the dimwits I deal with everyday, my exams are not over.

Anyway. Work and party tomorrow. Like, no kidding. Literally.
Kthxbai

Grumble

2010-10-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

Sorry but this is set to be another rant post.

I know this woman. Who is rude, bitter and angry. She is supposed to be an educator, instead she treats those who she should be educating with ZERO respect. She is sarcastic. She has an attitude problem. But when she is around other educators or parents, she laughs and jokes and smiles like a heaven sent angel.
I do not like her, and I suggest she learn some manners. Yes, so you are older than us. But do not expect respect from me if you do not return my grace.

People ask me why i am so angry. Of course I am angry, when every time I try to express my anger, I am downplayed, I am pushed aside to be dealt with later.

"What does a sixteen year old have to be bitter about?"
"Oh, it's just the teenage hormones."
"Please, she just wants attention!"

I have a lot to be bitter about. From the age of 7, I have been mocked and teased for my hairy arms, my frizzy hair. It never ceased to bring me down. I am sixteen now, and I thought that I had moved past it. I thought I was strong enough to deal with it, but then even a family member of mine commented on how I "looked like a gorilla".
I can say it doesn't bother me. I can say i am strong, that things like this are just little issues that mean nothing. But it would be a lie. It does bother me. It bothers me a lot.

I can lie and say I don't cry. That I don't care what people say. But I do. That doesn't make me weak - it makes me human.

Then there are the people who don't take me seriously. When they find that I have emotions and very adult-like problems, they say that I am an attention-seeker, a dramatic little girl. When an adult gets out of a relationship, they don't say to THEM "When were you in a relationship?"
Puppy love? Is that what you call it?
What makes my kind of love so different from yours? Because I am a few years younger? Because I have to suffer the humiliation of wearing a secondary school uniform?

You call me a child, but I am not the one who needs to grow up.
Take me seriously, just once. Instead of assuming I am an airhead, dumb little diva.

And you know something? I am an adult. In every way except one.

2010-10-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

I'm weak from confusion, the arguments.
The blows keep coming. i just want to give up. Who is there to fight for, to fight for me?
What is there to defend?
Why must it come down to who trumps who?

We are supposed to love each other, but all i see in those dark circled eyes is hatred, anger, contempt.
What has become of the smiles? What has become of the laughter, the tears I shed when we were apart?

And I truly thought it would be us, forever and always.
But i was a child, and now I know.
True love is that only in fairytales, this is the real world and it's time to grow up.

You didn't mean it, baby

Blow after blow, eventually you do fall

2010-10-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

The world goes around and around. It never stops, not for anyone.

I don't know what I'm saying. Okay goodnight lah. =.=

The girl with the imagination - me. :)

2010-09-25T20:53:00.003+08:00

"You see me as a sister?"
"I'm sorry," he said pleadingly, I could hear the remorse in his deep, throaty voice.
I felt tears well up in my eyes. I turned my head into my pillow, burying my face into the soft fabric, letting it soak up the tears.
"All these months..." I whispered
"I do love you, I really do," he said earnestly.
But i ignored him, tears streaming from the corner of my eyes into the pillow.
I hung up, burying my face in my pillow, pressing my face into it so hard i couldn't breathe. Choked sobs escaped my lips. I curled into a ball, doing my best to protect myself from the terrible pain I felt in my chest.

Three Days Later
I followed him as he stepped into the washroom. He glanced up at me as I walked in.
I leaned against a wall concealed from the peering eyes of anyone looking our way. We stared at each other - my arms crossed, his hands buried in his pockets.
"I just needed closure," i said quietly.
"Closure...?" he said, raising his eyebrows questioningly.
I shrugged. Truth was, I had no idea what i had to say to him.

A few moments passed, and then he took his hands out of his jeans pockets. Like a hundred times before, his he placed his warm hands on my waist, drawing me close to him.
I didn't uncross my arms, I simply let my eyes close, I let the moment take over me as I leaned against him and felt his lips move gently against mine.

I don't know how much time passed before our lips parted. 10 seconds, 10 minutes, 5 hours?
I could only stare in shock as my emotions held me rooted to the spot in confusion, eyes wide as I stared at him.

I turned my head to side, my brow creased, as his footsteps echoed out of the room.

10 random facts about yours truly ♥

2010-09-24T23:09:00.004+08:00

1. I'm punjabi
2. I love singing.
3. I'm one of the most fickle minded people you'll ever meet
4. I love ice-skating
5. Rihanna is playing on the speakers right now.
6. I have 492 facebook friends.
7. I am 5'6"
8. My strongest features are my hazel brown eyes.
9. I am a chocoholic.
10. I miss my bf.

Me, I'm a nutcase of the sickest kind.

2010-09-18T18:32:00.003+08:00

You know how the villains live longer? They're cowards, they fear death.

You know something, I think that death would be a whole new adventure.
It's just the pain I'm dreading.

Am I weird, for not fearing death, instead being eager to experience what happens when I heart stops, and the ground rushes up to meet me?

I'd like to see heaven, even hell sounds interesting - I mean, c'mon, to be able to kill and laugh about it, those shoddy characters in hell are sure to have personalities I'd want to see for myself.

I belong in a mental institution. I'm just not normal.

Ah, the laughing i do when I'm with you.

2010-09-17T15:43:00.003+08:00

Alistair: What's an AK-47?

Me: A Gun.

Alistair: What kinda gun?

Me: A big one?

Alistair: *Sighs* What about a Draneox?

Me: A gun.

Alistair: What kind of gun?

Me: A big one!

Alistair: Oh my god wei. What's a revolver?

Me: A gun A gun!

Alistair: What kinda gun?

Me: I know this one! I know this one! A NOT BIG GUN!

*Shakes head* Fail, Balveen. FAIL.

There go my tresses

2010-09-11T12:49:00.003+08:00

And off it went, my long straight hair, and i was left with...

...this.

Do you likey?

I likey!

Craziness with Zoe

2010-09-07T14:59:00.004+08:00

Yesterday when I woke up, I thought it was doomed to be a boring day. Had no plans, besides to eatsleepWatchtvgoonlinestonearound all day.

Ended having fun at Zoe's house all day. Haha. We made SCONES! :)
They were a huge success. So super duper yummy with butter and and TEA and and and yeah.

Then we went to tuition. Then I came home and crashed, I was so tired.
And today I'm back to being bored. *Yawn*Leaving for Taiping tomorrow. Shall go SHOPPING! I want to get...
Ahahaha wishful thinking lah. Haha I just like net surfing for clothes and stuff. I'm lifeless. Like Alistair.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Stuck, with no where to turn.

2010-09-05T20:46:00.003+08:00

I can't turn to anyone, everyone is against each other and I'm stuck in the middle.

Annoyed. Determined

2010-09-04T10:54:00.002+08:00

I am not staying home all day these holidays. I refuse to stay home like some lifeless loser.
I am not a criminal, not everything I do or say has an ulterior motive!

If I want to go for a movie, I WANT TO GO FOR A MOVIE, alright?!

And YOU. Will you reply my texts already?!

F this. I am gonna spend my allowance. I want to go accessory shopping, I dont care how bad I need a phone.
I am gonna get that fashion statue to hold my necklaces, since no one got the hint and bought me that for my birthday.

I will listen to Linkin Park on my iPod as loud as I want. My ears. I'll ruin them if I want.

Don't tell me I'm being childish, I'm acting like a teenager. I am one, remember?

I am in a bad mood.

Have you been watching White Collar? The dude is hot. I have a thing for gray eyes.

I have a thing for being random. I have a thing for having a thing.

I can't control this!

2010-09-01T18:12:00.003+08:00

I need a new phone. The spare i was using just acted up on me. ^*(#%^&(#*^*(#@!!!
And my slide phone buttons are impossible to type with. I am doing everything I can saving up like a crazy person, but it's really beginning to frustrate me. I am not rich. I don't have this uber large allowance. 80 percent of my allowance goes to recess, monthly restocking of stationery and phone credit. The other 20 percent, well, I need to eat when I go out with friends, right?!

I know I'm being ungrateful right now. At least i can afford to buy what I want during recess. At least i am allowed to go out with friends.
But we humans are never satisfied. A part of me (A BIG part of me) wished that I could have afforded that BlackBerry phone cover. The smile on her face would have been so worth it.
That necklace with the gorgeous key pendant that I've wanted since forever, I saw it yesterday. God I wanted it so bad.
That red watch. The present I saw that would've been perfect for Chee Hoi.

Oh my god people, don't listen to me. I'm just being bitchy to the world.
Shut Up, child.

If I skip outings and bring food from home this month, I'll have 400 bucks. If I save ALL of next month's allowance, I'll just barely have enough.
But where will I get credit from? And what about important things like stationery ( I use a LOT of pens and I am forever losing my eraser and ruler, alright?!)?

GAHHHH! !@#$%^&*(()_$%^&*(&^%#$%^*.

Just shut up, Balveen. Shut UP.

Dear John

2010-08-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

It made me cry :)
But I liked it.

Wish you could've been there watching it with me. ♥

Oh it's been a while

2010-08-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hello ya'll!
I missed this sexy blog. It's nice to be back on this page, typing away my thoughts and feelings. :)
HELLO.

What a lot has been happening. Alistair's 16th birthday, Monthly Tests, among others.
I'm saving up as hard as I can to but my new phone, my old one gave way and although it's been fixed I'm still using the spare candy bar nokia that i inherited from mummy 4 years ago.

Gonna wake up early and watch the DVDs I bought with mummy just now. Dear John, Remember Me and BandSlam. :D
I'm sleepy. Okaythanksbye.
;P

Today...

2010-07-28T17:21:00.002+08:00

Ah, it's near impossible for me to write normal posts anymore. I'm just going to stick with the random sentences.

►Tomorrow it would've been three months
►I'm a rebel :P
►Hurry home, I wanna text you
►I'm tired of school. A holiday would be nice.

I am lucky. Why am I such an ungrateful little brat?

I don't know.

2010-07-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

I DON'T KNOW.

Maybe it's time to...

2010-07-08T17:37:00.002+08:00

...Move on?

They've been my friends since forever, but fact is, we don't want the same things from life. We have different views on so many things, and as I let memories wash over me, I think about the underlying unfriendliness that had always been there. I hadn't wanted to study as much, or help teachers as much...

So I've come to conclusion that I need new, better, friends that will love me and who I can love, who can relate to me.

I'll get there. =)
I'm not too worried.

Feeling better =D

2010-07-07T15:36:00.002+08:00

What a terrible couple of days it has been. Splitting headaches to the point of being unable to stand, a rising fever making my pillows feel like they'd been under the sun...

Yesterday and today i was home from school, although today my headache is just a slight throb on one side of my head. After the kind of pain I've gone through these past few days, it's barely anything.

Much, much better =)
I mean, running around the house, making the F1 car noises and sitting on the kitchen counter while mummy cooks is a sign that I'm pretty much back to normal.

I'm addicted to Charices' new song 'Pyramid'. Pyramid,

We built this on a solid rock

It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

My birthday presents!

2010-07-03T13:04:00.002+08:00

Well in my last post I didn't mention all my lovely lovely birthday presents, so here thay are now!

Let's start with.. mummy!
She got me KEIHL'S products! Everything I'd wanted for so long, i finally received. I was beyong thrilled, I was speechless.
And yes, I received it at midnight ♥

And then there's WINFREY!
She got me this little pocket mirror. It had embroided sides, and was green. ♥ it!

And there's CHEEHOI!
CH got my a bookmark, it's metal and has my birthstone (the pearl) on it.

Andddd Suani!
Notebook! ♥

Elicia!
She got me these uber yummy cream puffs, omg they were so good =)

And okay last but not least Alistair =)
He got me a necklace, with 2 pendants - a heart and the word LOVE.
He also gave my an adorable soft toy, little FELIX the cat! (and yes felix is a girl!)
Andddd the home made card, with the poems that he wrote himself.
Did I mention the lunch at italiannies?
♥

Okay, folks, that sums up my birthday present post =D
Bye guys! ♥

Sweet, sweet sixteen

2010-06-25T11:10:00.009+08:00

Less than a week ago, I, Balveen Hullon, hit the big one six.

It was... certainly interesting. I got a call at precisely midnight from Alistair ♥

The day started off with me waking up, getting dressed and heading to Mid Valley. Once there, I went to Converse with Aly to get my Chucks! =D=) Red, high-topped, and oh-so-fabulous. Thanks Aunty Dee and Aunty Rita!

After getting them, we went to Italiannies for lunch, where I got my birthday presents from him =)
At precisely 1pm, mum and I headed to the Federal Hotel, because it was the Kasturi prizegiving for all the straight A students for PMR last year.
Monnneeeyyy! Little trophy-like thing! =D
By then it was 3.30, so we went home for a rest and to get ready for dinner. We planned to go to...
(The focal point of the picture is the chili, not the leftover Kiddie burger)
CHILI'S!

Dilraaj and I, two of the three Hullon grandchildren.
Me and Maanroshan, the 3rd Hullon grandchild. =)

While we were eating, the family on the table next to us ordered a Molten Chocolate cake to be brought out with a candle and a happy birthday song, because it was one of their daughter's birthday's too. Seeing them sing, I felt a little bummed out, and I said to myself very quietly, "I want one too"
I thought no one had heard me, but when we'd finished with dinner...
I got my wish! *Jumps around happily*
So, of course, being little kids, Dilaaj, Maanroshan and I attacked the dessert like tomorrow would never come.
Hehehehehehe it was the most sinfully delicious dessert I'd ever tasted. ♥

So, to sum up my birthday post, I am now officially sixteen.

(WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!)

11.19 pm

2010-06-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

In 51 minutes, Balveen Hullon is turning sixteen.

Red and glittery

2010-06-17T19:51:00.002+08:00

I love red. I'm not THAT huge a fan of glitter, but it goes together on my nails. So what the hell, right? =)
Taman Desa's IU was fun, Caprice was awesome and of course the dancing rocked.

Aaahhhh no matter how hard I try, I always go back to my randomity.

- I love Alistair for being Alistair. =)

Okay that's the only random thought for the day.
Ciao sexayyyyyyy people.

NAMELESS POST, for once.

2010-06-14T19:42:00.003+08:00

This blog post is starting out un-named. I have no name for it. I have no idea what on earth I am to blog about.
*Frowns*
*Thinks*

*thinks some more*

Oh dear lord. Where has my blogging mojo gone? I used to be able to sit down and write and write random, incoherent nonsense that for some reason, people liked reading (At least, I think they liked reading it. I had a decent amount of readers). Now, I sit and stare at the screen and no words flow. No crazy ideas, no incomprehensible mumbo jumbo run through my head.
Writers block?

On a different note, Aly just got twitter and started a new blog. His blog link is in my link bar on the left. Go see go see!

An outing has been planned for tomorrow with Ch and Win, we're planning on watching a movie. Cna't wait to see those two nuts, I miss our insanity together. =)

Okay then. You'll have to wait a little longer for a blog post about Julie's wedding. I need to get over this writer's block first.

Bye sexayyyyyy people =)

Wooosh

2010-06-11T14:55:00.002+08:00

Hello people!
Taiping is being unbearably hot. Julie's wedding is... ongoing.

The road leading up to the wedding is long and hectic. My nails have been proffessionally painted, my hair blow dried, my punjabi suits sewn, henna patterns on my hands, and the list goes on and on.

So. I sit here with my second bowl of ice-cream, my very nice red and white nails tapping away at keys, waiting for night to come, and with it bring the arrival of the Groom and his family and friends.

Maybe I'll have a nap. This is the first afternoon I've had to myself in quite a while.

Bye all =)

They do, I swear they come true.

2010-06-05T19:02:00.002+08:00

2 lunches in one day, endless roaming around our favourite mall, laughing and teasing and just having fun.
Get the picture?

I used to think happiness came with a price, and in fact in a way I still do. But true happiness, the kind that doesn't fade - that's free.

Hmmm I haven't been random in a while now.

> Subbbbwayyyyy sandwiches are my favourite food to eat, esp. when paired with CoffeeBean ice blendeds =)

> Chocolate cookies, YUMMMMMEEEE.

> I'm worried like crazy about being away from someone for almost a week (DON'T CALL ME CRAZY OKAY!)

> My birthday is coming. =D I'd planned and structured the perfect sweet 16, right down to the wish list, but now I want... absolutely nothing.

I have nothing left on my mind. Okie byebye blog. =D

I'll never say never.

2010-06-01T15:40:00.003+08:00

See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It's my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up up up,
And never say never.

I never thought I could feel this power.
I never thought that I could feel this free.
I'm strong enough to climb the highest tower.
And I'm fast enough to run across the sea.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
Cause this is my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

Here we go!
Guess who?
JSmith and Jb!
I gotcha lil bro.

I can handle him.
Hold up, aight?
I can handle him.

Now he's bigger than me,
Taller than me.
And he's older than me,
And stronger than me.
And his arms a little bit longer than me.
But he ain't on a JB song with me!

I be trying a chill
They be trying to side with the thrill.
No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will.

Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove.
Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood.

I gotta be the best, and yes
We're the flyest.
Like David and Goliath,
I conquered the giant.
So now I got the world in my hand,
I was born from two stars
So the moon's where I land.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

I'm stronger than I seem, smarter than I let on.
=) See what i said about JBiebs voicing my thoughts in his songs? The guy is awesome, girly voice or not.

My arms hurrrtttt, yo.

♪Are you gonna kiss, kiss and tell?♪

2010-05-29T15:01:00.005+08:00

Today, I woke up with a smile on my face. =)
Well, I've woken up everyday of the past month with a smile on my face, but today was a little different.

I'm in Taiping, my fingers click-clacking away on my mum's laptop as I Facebook, Tweet and Youtube. I should be typing the article about Pn Margaret's retirement, but I am a lazy pig, so I decided to just blog.

Justin Beiber's songs are playing through my iPod earphones, and I'm smiling, because girly voice or not the guy seems to be very good at depicting my thoughts and emotions.

I'm wishing and wishing for a miracle to occur, for my phone to ring and for his name to flash on the screen. As technically impossible (STUPID MAXIS) as that may be, I've always been one to want the impossible.
It's not like I've never gotten what I've wished for. I've wished for someone to love me without wanting me to change, and I got that, didn't I?

My phone is lying there, silent and dark-screened, next to the laptop. C'mon, C'mon, RINGGGGG!

In this past one month, the longest I've gone without him is maybe a day and a half. Now though...
3 days seems like forever when compared to a day.
Have you ever had that feeling of missing someone so much, there's a hollow in your chest? Like there's something missing in you. Like you can't find a part of you. I feel like that right now.

Taiping's the same as ever, the food is good and the weather is scorching and unforgiving. Afternoons are filled with long naps and nights are filled with talk, laughter, and discussions while I sit and watch my phone, waiting. And waiting.

I saw Sassy, my granduncle's dog that is almost as old as me, yesterday. I've known that dog since... I was a kid. She's probably the first big dog I learnt to not run away from. Sassy is growing old. One of her ears are lopsided, her neck seems to bend at an odd angle, and her legs can barely carry her where she needs to go. She limps over to my side when I climb the veranda stairs of my granduncle's house, eager for a pat on her head and a few words of love.
My heart aches for that beautiful dog, even if she was originally a stray taken in from the streets. she's become the oldest dog on the compound of their house and the most loved, too.

Okay, I've let out most of what I needed to say.
I'll go grab more ice-cream from the freezer (even if it won't fill the hollow, it makes me feel a little better) and sit down to... write an email. Yes, I'll write a nice long email.

Bye now, people! =)

Things need to change... now.

2010-05-28T18:22:00.003+08:00

Sick of being controlled, used and humiliated. I'm taking things into my own hands, and I'm letting myself LIVE.

If there's a dance I want to have, I'm not going to let the rain stop me.

If I want to have a magical time, I'm not going to care about forbids or prohibitions.

If there's a star in the sky I want to reach, I'm not going to let the distance dishearten me.

Who are we to decide what's right or wrong? What's right to me, is what puts a smile on my face. If something doesn't put a smile on my face, it's not right and I'm not doing it.

I have...

2010-05-22T10:10:00.002+08:00

... nothing to blog about.
Hi.

Song ringing in my head:

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Lalalalala great song, isn't it?! =)

Weird

2010-05-17T13:09:00.001+08:00

Weird is...
my laugh?
This feeling on whatever I keep getting?
me?
you?

Lady GaGa?

I don't know. Someone define weird please!

GASP

2010-05-15T14:03:00.002+08:00

I changed my blog layout! =) How do ya'll like this? IF I get too many negatice reviews I might just change it back. But we'll see. =)

OK randomness time.
>I am SO stuffed, I ate too much at lunch

>I want to get off this chair and get some chocolate, even though I'm SO full

>I wanna lie down and go to sleep, this time without my phone poking me.

>I wanna meet her too!

Add Maths, please just make yourself easier for poor little Balveen over here. Pretty please?

1,2,3,4

2010-05-13T18:02:00.003+08:00

I was browsing through Talitha's iPod when I came to this song, which I haven't heard in ages. It made me think, and i immediately made him listen to it.
=)

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feeling sad
Tell me I'm special even when I know I'm not
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
Barely get mad
I'm so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only
ONE thing (one)
TWO do (two)
THREE words (three)
FOUR you... (four)
(I love you) I love you
There's only
ONE way (one)
TWO say (two)
Those THREE words (three)
And that's what I'll do... (four)
(I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
The best that I've had
And I'm so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only
ONE thing (one)
TWO do (two)
THREE words (three)
FOUR you... (four)
(I love you) I love you
There's only
ONE way (one)
TWO say (two)
Those THREE words (three)
And that's what I'll do... (four)
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you

I listen to this song in a whole different way now =)
Wouldn't you?

I...

2010-05-12T18:27:00.002+08:00

... am in a very good mood =)
I need to stop worrying, and just live a little.

Ooops. Yeah. Ow.

2010-05-10T15:51:00.002+08:00

I fell. On the stairs. In school. In front of Alistair, Darshe and Divya.
I'm hurting. I can't bend the freaking elbow.

I'm eating chocolate chip cookies, I think the circumstances call for a little comfort food :)

I am trying to figure out how I'm going to handle the whole school magazine thing. I'm just... so tired from all the pressure. Exhausted.

Okay, I need to give my full, undivided attention to my precious choc chip cookies now. Bye people! ♥

Complicated when it doesn't have to be

2010-05-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

It shouldn't be a big deal. It isn't. I don't know why everyone keeps making a huge fuss.
Leave me be, and I won't make your life miserable.

My days get shorter, my nights even shorter. When does all the time go?

I find my thinking haywire, my eating habits all wrong. The dizziness isn't going away and I feel that if I tell you to your face you'd take it overboard.

Is it really so bad to want the little things in life? Do I have to aim for the big stuff?
GOSH this is just way too much right now.

Is it normal to have to keep reminding yourself to breathe?

______________________________________________________________

I just want a hug. Someone to convince me things will be fine, instead me convincing myself all the time.
All my life I've wanted to be loved, and now that I feel I finally am, it seems that everyone just HAS to say something about it, instead of just be happy for me.

Breathe, B. BREATHE.
*SCREAMS*

My loves, My hates, my 7 things.

2010-05-07T20:07:00.002+08:00

I love when:
-It pours down outside my window
-Mum climbs into my bed and tickles me
-My phone rings every morning, and when I answer it's the most beautiful voice in the world telling me to wake up (Talk about a great way to start your day)
- I hear those three magic words in my ear.

I hate when:
- He's upset and he doesn't speak
- I stare at my phone, but it just stares back.
- I walk home alone
- Radios do that play song-stop-talk-playsong-stop-talk thing

I have studying to do. Yes, I'll do that. Study.
Right.

(Now?)

Of secret languages and cracking up laughing

2010-05-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

We all know I laugh too much. Normally the topic of my laugh is a great conversation starter, people find my loud, sudden, donkey-like laugh entertaining.
Right now it's getting in the way. Grrrrrrrr.
I can't help laughing at the most... inconvenient times.

Anyway. I completed my BM essays, I'm so proud. Google is a god-send. =)

It's so so hot in the computer room, but I have a jacket on.

Tomorrow is a very special day for the Go Green day. It's... OLD NEWSPAPER DAY! (Do. Not. You. Dare. Laugh!)

I'm trying and trying to understand Chem and Add Maths. I am. But I am... lost. There's so much to memorize for Moral. Even more for history.

I'm playing Justin Beiber on repeat. I need to be stopped. I have studying to do, I don't know what I'm doing online.

Okay I'm going. I am. Really.

OOOOOOoooo look, Claire's online. =)

You've got me like "Oh my god..."

2010-05-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

I love Usher's OMG. Awesome awesome awesome.

Okay I think I should get back into my blogging mojo. I used to blog on a daily basis. I don't know what's happened, but I'll fix it. I'm gonna go back to rambling on pointlessly, because that's why you guys love me, right?
Kidding =D

So. Among the funny things that have happened to me lately;
- Four almost 16 year olds playing hide and seek around school.
- Winfrey and Suani wrapping me in Clingwrap from neck to ankles. Then carrying me into a box and almost shipping me to Punjab.
- Having boiled water in a boiling tube with a nut on fire.
- i also broke a boiling tube. That was awesome.

I just reread what I'd just typed above and have deduced that I need to be put in a lab to be tested. I'm just NOT normal.
But again, my weirdness - isn't that why you love me? ;)

Shakes head

2010-04-27T15:37:00.003+08:00

Yes, I know you are all hating me for my short, vague updates. I'll make it up to you! I will I will I will.

I shallllllll... tell you about the Go Green Campaign *Hides while you all throw rotten tomatoes at me*
Okay Okay, I won't bore with any Go Green related stuff.

How about I tell you about Clash of the Titans? Yes, you like that? Okay, Clash of the Titans was great. Plenty of action, mythical setting, interesting enough.

I can tell you about how I skipped school today, because of a horrible bout of flu that has hit me.

Andddd I can tell you about my happy happy happiness. Which I'm sure you've heard enough of in my recent short posts. =)

I'm racking my brain for something else to say, and i'm coming up blank. Oh forget it. I'll blog when there's someting I actually have to blog about.

BYe for now, people!

I have...

2010-04-25T21:26:00.001+08:00

A million things to blog about...
but I can't. =(

Because... He might kill me. Seriously.

INSERT RANDOM WORDS HERE

2010-04-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

Words evade me.

Days fly past me in a whirlwind of crazy fun erratic hectic shocking mad and possibly awesome.
There's so much I wish I can put down here, but I can't. Just can't. I don't know how to put feelings and memories into words, except the falsely thought up ones in my stories.

So I won't say anything. I'll just leave you thinking, guessing, wondering. =)

Go Green rocks, by the way.
As does my phone bill. HEH.

Oh.

2010-04-22T16:24:00.002+08:00

Randomness shall start.. now.

My pinkie finger hurts.
Guy watches are really heavy.
I love watching magic tricks.
There's something very awesome about singing Taylor Swift's Our Song.
Guitars are awesome, I wish I'd play mine more.

I'm an internet addict.
Because it connects me to... people.
I think guys have very sick minds. Even the innocent ones.

I miss my best friends, I wish they'd talk to me.
I say 'I wish' way too much.

I love the card. It's just a playing card, but it means so much to me.

Another go green collection tomorrow. SO RECYCLE, people.
I want to go watch a movie on Sunday. Anyone?

OK I'm going now.
BYE.
STAY SEXY, everyone! =)

Because...

2010-04-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

There are some things that, Balveen Hullon (certified control freak, bossy and annoying take-charge woman) cannot help but watch from a distance...

like her own life, sometimes.

I want what I want. Why can't I have it?

Bummerrrrrrrrrr!

2010-04-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

Blame Alistair for my excessive use of 'Bummer'. He keeps saying it, and now I keep saying it too. What a day in school. After getting comfortable with all the none stop hectic insanity of the photography session, today passed by in a flash.

I got a leeeeetle mad about something. And immediately after that felt so bad, because I realized that i was angry at him for a really unreasonable reason.

BUt anyway. Spent a good 2 hours on the phone, when I had actually PLANNED to sleep. And dear god, the things we talk about.

*silence*
Oh sorry, did you want to know what we talk about?
*silence*
Not gonna happen.

So anyway. The days will go on, and on. I'll just keep going and survive the madness that we call high school. Just barely.

=)
And oh dear god. The whole SCHOOL knows what happened. Busybodies.

An outing

2010-04-18T19:14:00.000+08:00

Clash of the Titans was awesome! =)
All in all, I had a great time.

There's just one little that keeps bugging me, and it's getting me down.

Aly, ask me what it is.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of...

2010-04-17T16:58:00.002+08:00

sunshine,
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine,

Natasha Bedingfield, this song is the work of a genius. ♥
=)

I need (yes, need) to do something about Kasturi. I can't keep going for 3 classes in a row. 4 hours in too much for one day.

Funny-ness;

Dad walked in with something he bought from the bakery.
Dad: Here.
Me: No thanks.
Dad: Just take one bite.
Me: One bite?
Dad: yes. one bite.
Me: (takes one bite. takes another bite. Finishes whole thing)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA that's so typical me!

Tomorrow is the outing with a bunch of people fro school. Can you believe they're mostly Form 2's?! Hahahaha but hey I was in Form 2 once, not long ago. =)

So. I will stop annoying you...

...now.

Take a deep breath, as you walk through the doors.

2010-04-16T20:41:00.005+08:00

Yes.

Take a very deep breath.

------------------------------------------------------------------

Photography session is FINALLYYY over. At last. 3 (and a half) days of sun, yelling, stress, sweating in my oversized uncomfortable baju kurung, and it's over.
THANK YOOOOOOU LORD.

Now there is the advertising aspect of the magazine to take care of. And my BM folio to do (10 karangans, 2 weeks). And my bio homework. *STARES AT SCREEN IN SHOCK*

How can I possibly focus on any of that, when- when- when-

The clock has to slow down. I need to breeeeatheeee.

PS- I love orange. =)
And red. =D
My T-shirt is orange and red.
My pinkie finger on my left hand is painted gold.
There is a purple 'R' on the side of my hand, but that's all that's left of the word that was on my hand earlier.
'All the Right Moves' by OneRepublic is blasting through the speakers.

Okay I'll stop now.

PPS- I think I have a bruise on my foot, where the table fell on it.
I chased a little kid around Pakatan Murni today.
Aly sang the Power Rangers song, while attached to a mic. Yeah, really.
My head is spinning, just like Taylor Swift said it would.

Okay, okay, I'M GOING!

Eyes wide open

2010-04-16T15:38:00.001+08:00

Did I do the right thing?
Am I allowed to be ecstatic, or should I be furious at myself?

I don't know, but this I do know;

I'm still picturing it. Over and over.
*Smacks head on desk*

Squints

2010-04-15T15:38:00.002+08:00

Hello all you fantastically fantastic, wonderful people.

Third day of photography is over, and guess what? I survived. I actually made it through 3 days of utter insanity. You lovely people rock.
(Many many thanks go out to Elynna, Elyssa, Amira, Nusrah, Chee Hoi, Winfrey, Dek Loong, Suanitta and Aly *Alistair - we all put in our combined effort to make the shoot a success =))

En Ragu very generously bought all involved burgers which was awesome. Aly's buger consisted of... basically nothing. An egg. AN EGG! (Picture a very confused look on my face)
If you're wondering why that is, it's because Aly's a vegetarian. He doesn't kill animals! =)

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

I blew up at him for something he said, and it took a game of truth and dare, Ilyas, and him puppy dog eyes-ing me to make me start talking to him again.

Mr RAGU asked if there was 'something going on'. *ROLLS EYES*

Pn Kalai (apparently) was OOoolala-ing at us in class.

People are so funneeeeeee sometimes.

Sighs.

BEFORE I GO:

Kim, my mum's ex colleague, posted this on my Facebook wall:

Kim Priestley Ramirez Your new profile picture is amazing!!! Maybe I should find you an American husband who will appreciate your beauty (both within and on the outside)! Tell your Mom I will not charge her the customary match-making fee! LOL

Made my day =)
It makes all the difference when someone says something like that to you. =D
PS- The picture she is referring to is the picture at the end of my last post, the one of me in the grey T-shirt.

And so it goes...

2010-04-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

?

First day of the photography session... (dot dot dot)

I survived, so kudos to me =)

I hear the fan running behind me. I hear the click-clack of the keyboard as I type. I hear ringing in my ears.

Ever heard of an almost perfect?

- - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Anugerah Cemerlang.
Not so lovely, but why dwell on the negativity?

Let's look at the bright side;
Lovely trophy (It's so tall it can't fit in my trophy showcase with all my other trophies. What the... )I proved myself, together with all my beautiful friends. =)

I got to camwhore. With WINFREY!

OK. The End.

Wait - before I go,Nothing like randomness, right?
=)

PS- I'm sorry I hung up on you. And then made you apologize for something I did wrong =(

Sticks tongue out

2010-04-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

OK help. I'm running out of good blog post titles.

I have school tomorrow, oh yes, I am happy happy joy joy about that. =) I need the hectic-ness, strangely enough. It's like the overwhelming stress and constant pressure is like a drug.

*reads last sentence again*
There is something very wrong with me.

SO. I will go take a shower, do some homework (It's like the bio homework never ends), and then turn in for the night.

Yes I know that's sad. No you may not call me lifeless, although I know you are thinking it.

Ciao for now!

PS- I just realized that there hasn't been a single day this week where I have slept in later than 8. I can just hear the teenagers reading this going "DUDE. That's like, so friggin' sad, dude."

*Sighs*

PPS- Did I mention that the Anugerah Cemerland went well? I didn't? Okay, good, because it DIDN'T go well.
Perhaps I will explain why in some other post, but for now, I bid you adieu.

No words

2010-04-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

There are:

a) Those days when you think like you forgot something

b) Those days that seem to go on and on and on

c) Those days where everything goes wrong

d) Those days where positivity just doesn't pull you through

e) And then there are those days where all (a,b,c,d) come together to become one crazy, hectic, mad day filled with roller coasters and running up and down, while in pain, while you're trying to find the YOU in yourself.

Me?

I have an (e) day EVERYDAY.

I can't remember my last holiday. Honestly.
I can't remember my name sometimes.
I push away all the good things in my life, I take on the insanity.

I know they say that it's all part of being a teenager, but I didn't realize that being a teenager involved being so much of a grown up that you forget what it means to be a kid.

And now I'm condemning him for being the one strong rock I have, the person I seem to be able to spill everything to.

I really AM an idiot.

PS- SUANITTA, I'm not letting you have the Iron Man book back. NOWAYNOWAYNOWAY. MINE.

Smile!

2010-04-08T17:09:00.002+08:00

I created this on picnik, a super cool photo edit site. Nice?!

WE had our first School Magazine meeting today. Oh boy do I have a lot on my plate.
Besides magazine sub-editor duties, I'm also missing the Anugerah Cemerlang (Academic Excellence Awards) to go to a debate workshop. I'm getting 2 awards, one for my straight A's and another for best English results.
But I'm not going to be there to proudly go on stage and get my awards. MY HARD EARNED AWARDS. =(

Something amazing happened today.

I was online, when Nani walked into the computer room and came to stand behind me, her tea mug in hand. A moment of silence, while she stared at the computer screen while I browsed Facebook, before she goes;
"Teach me how to use la."
MY JAW DROPS. I go, "Huh? Really?"
Nani:"Yeah, teach me, how to go here (Points to Facebook logo)..."

Now, if you don't see the significance of this miraculous happening, allow me to explain.
My grandmother (Also known as my NANI) is a tech illeterate. It took mum years to convince Nani to start using a mobile phone. She's always insisted that she doesn't need one. Until she realized that when she takes the train back to Taiping, it's impossible for us to communnicate with her, making us worry about her. So she agreed to a phone.
But now, she's showing an interest in COMPUTERS?
I'm so proud of her =)

OK people. I'm done babbling. Go search for someone to lifelessly stalk.
BYE SEXAAAYYYYSSSSS =)

Just can't stay away from you, Can i?!

2010-04-02T16:33:00.004+08:00

Yes that's right. I've moved back to blogger.
I'm an idiot. *sigh*

Do you know, I've never failed anything before, in my life. I think I got a 42 in a science test, back when I was 12. That was the worst I'd ever done on a test.

Until this little thing called Add Maths came along. And boy do I have a message for you, ADDMATHS.

Nothing (I REPEAT- NOTHING!) gets in my way when i want what I want. And what I want, is straight A's for SPM.
As mum has told me (and I have proven over and over again), when I set my mind to it, I do the most astonishing things.

You've beaten me once, during midterms. You're not beating me again. No way in hell. I'm getting an A(+. I'm getting an A+) and that is that.

HMMMMMMPH. *GLARES AT ADD MATHS PAPER*

Okay moving on.
I got an A+ in English, an A in BM. Not telling you the rest! Let's just keep you in suspense. =)

Funny things that have happened that i must blog about:

- Faiz randomly yelling in the middle of a school assembly, because of football.
- Me playing a random traumatized chick who was actually adopted by Orlando Bloom at birth,
- Win,Ch, Suan and I playing Monkey in school with a plastic bottle stuffed with name cards.

I did an awesome job on the second one. I rock. Call me sometime, Hollywood. =)

Okay. I end here.
I LOVE YOU ALL xD
But my heart, it's taken. =)

Bye all you sexy people. =D

Balveen Hullon

I like the idea of Valentines Day! :D

One down, eleven to go.:D

In some ways, some things never change

The many faces of Balveen Hullon

THESE ARE MAI CONFESSIONS!

Of phones I had and have and will maybe never have.

It's the girl you let get away

Steve, you know I love you, but...

I pray to god everyday, that you keep that smile,.

Is heaven above the clouds?

Worth the wait

We gonna party like, like it's the end of the world!

I was that girl. Or, I thought I was.

One minute...

What's been happenin'?

WHEN?!

So here's a good question -

My heart was pounding...

You make me feel...

A little bit of life.

Are you, are you coming to the tree?

Unbelievable

Somebodeh is gettin' oldddd.

So.

Teacher said.. "Let's go over the baby steps. What does the baby say..."

Music to my ears, hurts.

What I've been thinkin' about

Oh. Hello.

Of late...

Last Night...

When did we grow up?

All I can say is...

Just don’t be vicious tomorrow. Please.

I wish I could change things :(

ENOUGH.

My New Year Resolutions

What's a new camera without a little camwhoring?

Camera! :D

Time to spill.

Tell the world I'm coming home

I'd be lying.

Where?

And my days go...

I am hungry.

Dayuuummmmm weihhhh

*Grumble*

Blow after blow, eventually you do fall

The girl with the imagination - me. :)

10 random facts about yours truly ♥

Me, I'm a nutcase of the sickest kind.

Ah, the laughing i do when I'm with you.

There go my tresses

Craziness with Zoe

Stuck, with no where to turn.

Annoyed. Determined

I can't control this!

Dear John

Oh it's been a while

Today...

I don't know.

Maybe it's time to...

Feeling better =D

My birthday presents!

Sweet, sweet sixteen

11.19 pm

Red and glittery

NAMELESS POST, for once.

*Wooosh*

They do, I swear they come true.

I'll never say never.

♪Are you gonna kiss, kiss and tell?♪

Things need to change... now.

I have...

Weird

*GASP*

1,2,3,4

I...

Ooops. Yeah. Ow.

Complicated when it doesn't have to be

Grumble

Wooosh

GASP

Shakes head

INSERT RANDOM WORDS HERE

Squints

Sticks tongue out